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Posted January 31, 2023 at 11:20 am

The mind conditioning is wearing off. At this point we are far enough along that even if he turned on me it would have been okay, and he would have been easy to dispose of, but to my delight he seems to be fully invested in the further development of the Infinity Brain, as well as continuing to be my student. 

It has been so long since I had a person around to engage with in any meaningful way. I have enough introspective ability to understand that I am afraid to see him as more than a tool. A disposable tool at that. 

I do not feel guilt, and I do not think I have a sense of morality anymore... but I understand that I owe him a vast debt. One that can never be repaid. 

"The ends justify the means" is a crude and often idiotic statement, but I do not have any other ways of justifying the many many actions I have taken, and will continue to take, to fulfill my goals.

... I am afraid of developing empathy again, and I hope I do not.

-Journal of the "Snow Queen"